Friends

I have been having alot of trouble lately with friends. I am considered a pushover. Anyone can be as mean and rude to me as they want and i will still stick to be there friend. Well recently, everyone keeps freaking out on me for "talking shit" when in fact im not even the one doing it 90% of the time. People who i think i can trust twist my words around and tell my closest friends that i am talking shit. Its rediculous that people even fight over "talking shit". EVERYONE TALKS SHIT! There isnt a human sole, who hasnt talked shit about someone else. Ive found that my boyfriend is the only friend i really have. Hes always there for me, and gets so upset with me when i let other people push me around and make me that upset. If you have friends who treat you like shit get them out of your life asap. Because sooner or later, they will do something so hurtful that you wont be able to even live with yourself.

She was the kind of girl who

She was the kind of girl who popped three pills after lunch. She was the kind of girl who would console you when your having a really bad day. She was the kind of girl who liked to drink red wine, by her pool on a Saturday afternoon. She was the kind of girl who would call every blone girl Mindy. She was the kind of girl who would tell you you're being a twit. She was the kind of girl who would leave her window of the classroom open in the middle of the winter because she was having a hot flash. She was the kind of girl who would let us watch the movie, right after we read the book. She was the kind of girl who would obsess over Maya Angelou. She was the kind of girl who would cry on graduation seeing all her students leave. She was the kind of girl who would be the sweetest and nicest person you have ever met. I really liked this writing exercise. I was just reading over my notes and stuff and began to read it again and feel in love. I really like how its basically about this girl who does all these things, but she ends up to be my teacher in the end. I didnt ever know i was doing it like that when i was writing it. Its kind of cool.

The Sky

I have always been a big fan of sunrises and sunsets. I love watching them happen. It is so beautiful. I love the sun, but the way the sky looks when it rises or sets is absolutely magnificant. Its like a beautiful painting that took forever to get finished. The sky is covered with pinks, purples, blues, oranges, yellows, and reds its friggen awesome. I also love being out at my boyfriends parents house when the sky is covered with stars. I used the say that the moon was god, and all the little stars around it are the angles that are flying in heaven. Out in Pierrepont is amazing though, the sky is completely covered. I have never seen so many stars in my life. The sky is like a way to get away for me. When im having a bad day or im lonely all i do is look at the sky and get a feeling of good. It truly takes your mind of things.

My boy!

I have been dating my boy for 4 years now. Of course we have shared our ups and downs but who doesnt. And yes we have been on again off again. Over the couple years though we have been doing so great together. He is my best friend, the one person i know i can tell anything to and he wont judge me for it. I love him uncontrollably. Everytime i have to go away and leave him i get so nervous that hes going to find someone else and leave. Its pretty stupid of me to get so worried after 4 years when i leave him. But its hard for me, i worry about everything non-stop. Its like a never ending cycle. I hate it so much sometimes. He thinks i dont trust him, which isnt the case i dont trust other bitches. If he ever left i dont know what i would do, i would be so heartbroken. I probably wouldn't be able to get over him four years. I know he is the best guy around, hes caring and genuine. I dont think he would leave, but you never know. I guess we'll just have to see. I know that alot of girls not just myself, feel this way. Haha and if you do let me know so i dont feel like such a retard. :-)

My mom!

My mom is my best friend. She is the one person i know i can count on for anything. Shes had a lot on her plate raising three kids basically by herself. Yes, my dad was around but never like she was. She has been to every game and sporting event that i ever had. She might have missed a couple, but it probably tore her apart. She loves her kids with her whole heart and nothing less. She is the kindest, and most caring and generous person i know. She has always been there to catch my tears, to make me laugh and tuck me in at night. I live with my boyfriend now, and every once in a while i just get so emotional not seeing her every day. And not laying with her on the couch before i go to bed at night. I miss her so much sometimes it makes me cry. I dont know where i would be in this life without her. She has been leading my way forever, and countinues to push me forward. She is the greatest person alive. Without her i would be lost, without her i would die, without her i would completely loose myself. I LOVE MY MOM! So heres to mothers allover, and the daughters that stand by there side. If your a daughter i bet you understand. And heres to the fathers allover, who live alone and raise there kids so great. I know theres some daddys girls out there.

I had a bad day again

I had bad day again she said i would not understand She left anote and said, "I´m sorry i, i had a bad day again" She spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace smeared the lipstick on her face Slammed the door and said, "I´m sorry i had a bad day again" And she swears there´s nothing wrong I hear her playing that some old song She puts me off and puts me on had a bad day again She said i would not understand left anote and said, "I´m sorry i had a bad day again" "So hold me when I'm here Right me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared And love me when I'm gone Everything I am And everything in me wants to be the one You wanted me to be I'll never let you down Even if I couldI'd give up everything If only for your good." "I’m here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I’m here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonightIt’s only you and me." These are three verses from 3 doors down. As you can tell from my last post i am in love with the song Kryptonite. But its not just Krytonite that i like. I love all of the songs pretty much that this band makes. They have such a unique sound. I am a big music buff and i love listening to soft rock. Some of the best songs all have to do with love. They have true meaning behind what they write. I hope to see more of them soon.

Kryptonite

Kryptonite

(Lyrics by Arnold) (Music by Roberts, Arnold & Harrell)

"I took a walk around the world to Ease my troubled mind I left my body laying somewhere In the sands of time I watched the world float to the dark Side of the moon I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the Dark side of the moon After all I knew it had to be something To do with you I really don’t mind what happens now and then As long as you’ll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still Call me Superman If I’m alive and well, will you be There holding my hand I’ll keep you by my side with My superhuman might Kryptonite"

ps- sorry for posting so late i have been very busy this week with soccer and school. Next week i will try to get ahead of the game. Sorry guys.

As in everyone in America should know, Will Ferrell is a fucking genius. He is one of the most talented actors in Hollywood right now. Hes not that sexy but his movies are pretty damn good. This is a clip from Wedding Crashers, from when he was the pimp daddy and starting the whole wedding crashing scene. All i can say is "MOM THE MEATLOAF!" haha its a great clip and i hope you guys enjoy it. I don't know how anyone couldn't like Will fucking Ferrell for god sakes. Hes a GOD! P.S.- Thanks Danielle for the idea, don't think I'm trying to copy you in any way!

The Dove Commercial

I really liked seeing the Dove commercial. Its nice to know that people are actually noticing the problem with so many women trying to look perfect. Women should be able to be who they are and who they want to be without having to worry about what people think. It is so hard in todays society though, women are striving more and more to become perfect. When in fact noone is perfect. If you arent skinny, or have sits on your face you are looked at and mad fun of. It is truly damaging to the womens soul. And yes, i know that it is not just women who are trying to become more and more perfect. Alot of men out there today are becoming the same way. Trying to look right is such a stupid thing. People should be who they are and embrace it. P.S.- Be who you are and love yourself!

Exquisite Corpse

"If the air out there is blue & autumn leaves cover the entire world with lots of pretty colors the rainbow sat in the blue sky where at the end should be a pot of gold And a little Leprachaun with kids chasing the Lucky Charms, Until they get to the end of the rainbow Then that is where they found the pot of Lucky Charms and Leprachauns, was found at the end of the rainbow There always after my Lucky Charms Silly rabbit tricks are for kids while others are snap, crackling and popping for rice crispies I would love to eat them then nap like after turkey dinner of Thanksgiving Day pass out like a drunk. party like a crunck. How do you party like a crunk? i dont know what that is My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard my milkshake is better then her milkshake i got the best milkshake around girlfriend No, only if you have a strawberry milkshake. I like strawberry milkshakes, but i like chocolate ones more."